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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

CONSOLING MYSELF??

The storm had receded. It had rained heavily through out the afternoon. Hail storms are not so regular in this part of the country, yet at times they do make their presence felt. The wide roads were flooded with the fast flowing rain water.

The night was clear. I moved the window screen aside so that from the comfort of my bed, I could see the stars twinkling. It has been always a refreshing feeling to look at these stars. The fresh nocturnal breeze carried with it the fragrance of the jasmine and champak flowers of our garden. It seems as if an age old friendship exists between these flowers and the mystery of the night. The magic of such an ambience was evident. It was as if the beauty of the night was smiling at me.

But at times, when the outside is so clear and beautiful, it is the internal faculty that is shrouded with confusion. The same thought reappeared. I am still unable to discover the reason of my existence. Ancient texts and wise people say that God has created every person with an objective. The Alchemist reiterates the fact that however small it might be, yet every individual plays a central role in the universe, with or without his knowledge. Till now, I am not aware of any role that I am playing, nor can I think of any such role in future. I am just another of the selfish individuals who spend their whole lives in fulfilling their own desires and aspirations.

I can see only one path which I am likely to take…the path which seems worn out as most of the travelers find this path easy to tread. I don’t possess the courage to take an unknown path…a path which is vastly different from the other path. But this lack of courage is something which defines an ordinary human being. It is the lack of this courage in most of the individuals which makes world an easy place to live in…and lively too. Am I trying to console myself for this lack of courage or for my inability to discover the reason of my existence….yeah…may be.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey Sabya...Nice blog as usual but isnt living for oneself a reason enough to live.. why cant someone live to fulfill his/her own desires n aspirations... why is that person considered to be 'selfish'... well this definitely is a purely personal opinion but I really dont see anything wrong in it...

Anonymous said...

well its one long debate..worn out does not esentially mean easy to tread .I am sure no path is easy to tread,not the novel and definitely not the worn out. This is precisely because if u take the worn out path the biggest encumbrance would be this nagging doubt which'll constantly upbraid u 'Am I being selfish'? This is exactly where you should take this upbraiding in your stride by being a 'karmayogi' (my dad loves this word)and by discharging your duties earnestly ..samjhe..The onus of this entire planet is not on you ..so if everybody does their duty properly I am sure the world will be a happy place to live in..And in a way I am very surprised by this post because I thought of u as someone very sorted out.( This is the image I conjured from reading thy blogs) In ur last blog u said u wanted inspire students an all..so ya u should just enjoy the fruits of ur toil and have fun..I too was embroiled in this idea for long..so cud actually relate better ..anyways ..
cheers..

SABYASACHI said...

Interesting thoughts..friends.

Anon 1: There is absolutely no wrong in living life for own self. Thats what almost all the people in the world do.

Anon 2: I must say I am impressed. Looks like you are or have remained a student of Philosophy..

Anonymous said...

hey..Philosophy has never been my discipline and to philosophize was not my intent .While writing the blog I was in a way consoling! and conversing with myself (I too am on the verge of choosing a career). I was and still am in a quandary .If I tell you what I plan for myself, u'l think of it as something wid abso no social backbone..might as well laugh it off.but one thing I realize, whatever the choice.showing solidarity is important..
cheersaaa..

SABYASACHI said...

Anon-2....after reading ur comments, i san say with confidence that whatever u have chosen must be great....believe in urself and forget how the world is going to react....